Today I had to go shopping. I hate shopping with all of my black, broken heart! I think there will be shopping in hell. I can see it now, I am seating in line and I walk up to the devil,
“No drugs, and she must shop!” *evil laugh*
I am so sick of people tiring to change me! I am sorry but I didn’t think that anything thing was fucking wrong with being different. My grandma thinks that I do drugs . . .what would give her that idea? Me do drugs…no way! Lol. It really sucks because I had to lie to them about it. I don’t lie, but I was really good at it! I hate lying so much. I am so mad at myself for lying, how could I have done that?
Today was the first day that I went shopping and spent over $200 on something that wasn’t black or dark grey. It was really scary as hell! I might have to eat meat while I am here! My grandma was really mad that I am a vegetarian. Whatever, don’t want to eat someone’s mother! I am just weird like that.
I am starting to build up the courage to ask my friend out. Her name is Meryl. I really think she is cool. Ali might get mad, so being friends is fine…for now. JK! Humm I am running out of things to write.
I am not that depressed today! The only thing that I am sad about is that every one wants me to change. Am I really that messed up? I mean I have my problems but so dose every teen. I mean the teen aged years are just an apathetic cry of revenge and rebellion!
Whatever…I will write later to night!